Diane Feist
Oh Ann… I just called JoAnne's Hospice House to talk with you. I was told that you were no longer in that room. They could not give me details. So, I looked up your obituary. You are now in heaven with God, where you expressed you wanted to be. You "were ready" you said. I met Ann at JoAnne's Hope Hospice House only 2 months ago. I volunteered there. Ann and I had an instant connection! She had that "naughty" look in her eyes when we visited. Sharing her stories. We laughed for hours, reminisced on her nursing days, talked about fashion back in her younger years, with all her shoes she so admired. She could recall with detail each one of them. How she loved her silk heels. She spoke highly of her family. How she missed them. We also spoke intimately about God and what she hoped for? If she had accepted Jesus as her personal savior? What would heaven look like? She was so ready to go home with the Lord. She was such a strong believer. I would pray over her, holding her hands, before I left each time. She was tired of her quality of life. "This is not me," she would tell me. Her face saddened. Then on my last day with her at the end of May, I went to visit her to tell her I had to go back to MN for the summer. She instantly said "NO" in agony, wept, grabbing me close to her. She wouldn't let me go. I think she knew this would be the last time she would see me on this earth. We both cried. I told her I would call her when I got back home. Just to visit and try to brighten her day. Which I sure did a few days before she died. They had moved her closer to the nursing desk, and she was sleeping. How sad I am that I wasn't able to speak with her. My timing was off. My heart aches. Ann, you were such a gift to me in the short time we had. You taught me much. You were my day brightener and my favorite client. Such a wonderful friend. I am on bended knee in thanks. I will always remember you. Ann, remember, what I taught you while you were laying in bed. You tell the nurses, "It's all about me." Today Ann, "it's all about you!" You have made it home and in the hands of our great God. I will miss you. I love you more! Diane