Mom, You know what's so terrible, besides every time I start writing the words, my tears continue to flow, but last night so many things kept going through my head and so many great things as a child really made me remember, like when I was 6 and you were the one teaching me to ride my first bike, u pushed so hard I rode myself right into that giant Holly Tree, or when we moved 5 houses down and right on the water, where I fell through the ice and u and dad, and when I'm saying dad in this I'm referring to PJ always.These were the young times for heather I and can't forget the way you two made me quit sucking my thumb by putting first aid cream on it, yuck,while living in river club estates in Edgewater MD, Then as always we moved to the next home to fix up in Hills mare Shores, this was the only time I got to play catch with dad, it never again happened you guys were always to busy, the bad times here, was getting an Arrow through my cheek, but still remember the Japanese garden you guys put in and Japanese dolls from dads marine corps days in Japan. But the greatest thing that happened at this home, that I was a part of was, my Sister Barbs Wedding on our tennis court to Mr. Edward Tucker and then after two years here we moved closer to our school still in Hills mare, where I only remember 1 bad thing and that was me braking a window by accident but telling dad I don't know what happened coz I didn't want to get hit for it. got hit anyway, After 1 year we moved again to a smaller home in Bay ridge estates, then after a year, we moved again three streets down to Bayridge rd.. where I met Ronald and then my mind got really twisted. and heather had Francis Willy for a neighbor, and at 13 we started smoking and drinking, and really learned about drugs once heather started working at Arnolds. I believe I used the army as my crutch for Alcoholism, so from 14 to 24 I smoked, drank a lot, drugs were big from 14 to 19 I know it was both of us, but even after that place u put me in, you still refused to listen to me tell the truth about the trouble heather and I were into, it was easier just to agree about everything and then I was out quickly and I went to visit a friend from there and the first night we were on Acid and I was so drunk from everclear 190% and then when we moved to cape saint Claire where we got out first tv each and did fireworks at the edge of the driveway and then Saint Margaret's where heather beat me up and joe was not a friend but an acquaintance for drugs and what not i keep thinking if they ever have to repair the upstairs bathroom they will find a bong and pot in there, I never had anyone to teach me about people and girls and things so i never learned people skills so just started dating older women, The first one was the woman across from us on old Benfield rd. and drinking there a lot too. Everything else came from fred pritt and his brother, but I know i'll never get married even though yet I'm healthy and ride bikes every other day, but through all of this by the time I was 24 I quit smoking and drinking. do about a six pack a year now. And since then having been working my butt off trying to be what you want and see u again and now i'll never get the chance until I see you in heaven. GOD Bless MOM pls know I've always loved you Both.your loving SonMark
