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honestly... i never stop thinking about you. my life shifted so abruptly and immeasurably and i can't help but to see you ever corner i turn. what would have been our 25th birthday is coming up soon, and with every day that passes the weight gets heavier. it feels like you were the only person who ever saw me and i think a huge part of me left with you. your existence forever changed my life and it's so confusing trying to navigate it all without you. every day i miss my best friend so much. you really could have done anything you wanted to in this world. i miss talking about our favorite albums, playing chess, watching anime... i miss talking to you late at night about the most random things. and i really miss your laugh. you used to get so excited when you laughed. even after all this time it still doesn't feel real to me and i'm starting to think that it never will. i sincerely hope that i see you again someday, hopefully one day soon, i have so much to tell you. i hope you are proud of me.
